updates for today

I decided to change the format, in the hopes that I'd find the new one more inspiring. And I was going to post a picture on the side, and start the process of turning this into a "real" blog. Unfortunately, I am terribly intimidated by html, and recovering from a bout with the flu, and am not necessarily ready to learn something new.

I'm trying to get things in order in my life, bit by bit, but remain stuck on the apartment situation. It's incredibly uncomfortable to be here (for many reasons, many of which are my fault, and that I could fix if I had the energy). But, for some reason, it just feels impossible to deal with.

I'm terrible at confrontation, and beyond that, I'm at a loss as to what I would do even if the roommate situation were sorted out. My fridge and stove would still be broken, I would still have too much stuff to fit in the apartment, I still wouldn't have a regular schedule set.

So, it's easier to ignore this, and hide out in my bedroom, or at other people's apartments.

Pathetic, I know.